I love the idea of the new year. It is symbolic of the turning of a page, taking a heavy weight off one's shoulder, shedding some old skin or just looking forward. I'm not much on making New Year's resolutions; it seems like nobody keeps them for more then three weeks anyway, so why bother in the first place? It's always hard to change a bad habit or just start a good habit. I think the main reason it is so difficult to stick to our New Year's resolutions is that all we worry about is how hard it is going to be, rather that looking at what the outcome will be.
The sad part is, we often don't trust God with the changes we would like to see in our life. He can hear the person who is hungry and hear the person who wants to lose a few pounds at the some time. Not only that, but he will pay them equal attention at the some time, along with a few billion other issues.
I know some of you lost your jobs, loved ones, friendships, a marriage, life savings or any number of things. Some of you may be asking deep down, where is God? God is right there with us, we just need to seek him. In the deep, dark pit when we don't feel his presence, all we need to do is cry out, and he will be there.
Several years ago when I was prepared to go to college, I didn't really understand why I was going. I just felt God was telling me to go. At the time, the church I was going to helped students financially if they went to a Mennonite college, and that included where I was going. I wasn't expecting them to pay it all; I just needed to know how much I would need to come up with.
The head of the church board told me they had to meet and talk about how much they wanted to give to me. From the time I heard God tell me to go to college to when the winter semester began was two months, so I had to act fast. The last week before classes began, I still hadn't heard back from the church. I called the head of the church board and asked if they made a decision yet. He said they would meet Sunday morning and render their decision. I was nervous, because I had to be at the college for orientation the next day.
I didn't know what to do. I cried out to God, telling him I felt like he was guiding me to go to college, but I wasn't sure I could go. Every time I prayed, I felt in my heart like everything will work out. That Sunday I want to church saying, "God, you have to do something." Immediately after church, I found the guy and he told me they would pick up the entire bill. I went from almost having a heart attack to relief in one second.
God will allow us to see the edge of the cliff without allowing us to go over. Not because it's a game to him, but he wants us to trust him and dependent solely on him. I think part of trusting him is crying out to him and letting him know how we feel.
Some people think we should just go with the flow, but part of being in a relationship is expressing one's feelings. God is a big God -- he can handle it. A new year leads to new opportunities to put our trust in God.
My name is Kyle Snyder, I was born with cerebral palsy. My CP affects the way I walk and talk. I graduated from West Homes High School in 2005, in Millersburg, Ohio. I like to write, and began writing in a small community newspaper about six years ago. I am currently writing a book about my journey in life as a person with cerebral palsy. My hope is to bring hope to the hopeless, and encouragement to the discouraged. I hope this monthly column will help each and every one of you on your journey in your own life. You can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I will see you every month.